Finnally~ Exam Finished~

[~Final Exam Finished~]
17/10/2010~
I stop online~!
Coz wan revision 4 my final in form 4~
I feel stress, coz many things i dono when i revision~
Even i cry, haiz...
But dear is helping me...
Dear gave me his support everyday b4 i exam~

18/10/2010~
1st day exam, BM paper~
Paper 1 n paper 2~
Walao....
Paper 1 essay~ I can write~ Simple
Paper 2 grammar n so on~ I oso can do wor...
but dono hw is the result la~~~

19/10/2010~
2nd day exam, BI paper n SIVIK~
BI paper 1, abit difficult, but i still can do~
BI paper 2, i can do~
The drama part, wat i revision, come out o~
So i can do~ Yeah!!!
SIVIK ????
Such a stupid subject...
My class didnt study sivik...
But still wan exam sivik...
Wat kind of reason o ?
No study still wan exam???
So, i simply do~~
Hehe!!!

20/10/2010~
Sejarah n ICT~~
Very good....
Sejarah ?
I dono~ paper 2, i jz let it blank...
Paper 1, objective question...
So i simply answer~ Jz let it be, i knw i =sure fail sejarah de la~
HOPELESS~~~
ICT, I dono wan 2 study wat...
So many lessons... I jz simply read lo~
Finally, tis time ICT easy...
Not difficult like last time~
I can answer all... 1st time i answered all in ICT paper~ So happy...

21/10/2010~
P.Moral n BC1~
Moral actually is easy...
Jz nid 2 memories 36 kata kunci n nilai murni~
Ok lo~ i got memories~
BC1? Simple la~
Write essay~ So i jz write lo~~
I love 2 write essay~
I wrote 6 pages 4 1 essay~ hehe~~

22/10/2010~
Math paper????
Paper 1 n Paper 2...
I really dono math's teacher teach wat~
I dont knw all !!!!
But dear very pro in math...
So i tell myself tat i cant lose any ppl in math~
Coz math is a very simple subject~
So, i tried the best of mine 2 do math during exam!!!
Dono hw bout the result~

25/10/2010~
Sc paper~
Tis subject really die~
Everytime teacher teach i slp~!
Aiyo~ Dono hw...
Got abit regret~
but time's up~
Regret oso useless~
So jz bear it~
Simply do~

26/10/2010~
PDT n BC2~
PDT ok lo~
Got simple dot difficult...
Simple is write coding~ Tat 1 i still can cope~
Others i dono liao~
BC2...
I hate chinese~
Very difficult~ I hate
I blank many question...
BC paper i really simply do la~
I still slp 30mins during chinese exam~

27/10/2010~
Exam omost 1 finish liao~
But, 2day paper is very important 4 me~
I must score...
FOP n ADD MATH2
Fop quite simple lo~
Jz nid 2 write 5 program~
Add math....
I no comment~
Coz i oledy try my best...
I cried when i revision add math at nite~
Haiz...
Dear dont like i like tis...
He jz don 1 i feel stress n unhappy~
But i tried my best...
I knw tat i blank many question~
Jz 4get bout it~ Jz bear~

28/10/2010~
Last day exam!
But is add math paper~! Haiz...
Same lo!
Dono do, simply do...
Blank the paper~
Nvm la~
Add math so difficult~

So i blogging after exam~!
Happy freedom, stress-less....
Yeah~~~
Can play comp everyday liao~!
Really happy~

But the result come out...
I dono hw...
So worry~
But nw i must let myself freedom n happy 1st~!
No nid care bout the RESULT~

Im doing wat ?

Im doing wat ?
Cried yesterday...
Bcoz of he~
He came out in my mind again~
Y ?
Y will like tis ?
I oledy promise myself he is non of my business le~
Y ?
Y yesterday i will like tis ?
Y suddenly so many ppl hate me ?
Even avoid me oso~
I feel so sad!
I tell myself tat i cant everything wait 4 dear...
I tell myself tat im not a child anymore...
I cant let the ppl who loves me become worry me~
I fail~ I fail to do it~
I lose confidence~
I lose all~
Jz a night~
Let me lose so many things~
Really sad~
Y?
Tis is not my life...
I must get a way to 4get him~
Love my dear...
Coz i promise dear...
Dear is cant b replace in my heart...
No1 can replace dear...
I wan to 5 out all the things tat ppl still keep me in dark!
Dont keep me in dark anymore~
I oledy knw many things happened~
I jz dont wan say so much~
Pls admit wat u do~
Pls do wat u say~
Dont wan say tis but u do tat~!
I hate...
I angry...
I dono y u will appear in my mind yesterday~
When i start revision, u out~
WT FXXX~
Dont play vf me anymore~
I tired~
I wan my life b normal~
Bcoz im jz a normal girl~
My heart oso will feel pain when u all treat me like tis~
My patient is got limit~
U all r OVER my limit dy~
I enough~
I tired enough~
I hurt enough~
Not bcoz my dear i heart~
It is bcoz u all!~
Hurt me~
Dono wat is my feelings ?
I got my feelings... OK ?
Dont play vf tis emotion dy~
Pls, if u hate me...
U can get lose from my life~
Pls, if u wan play vf me...
U can let me knw, i will accompany u play~
So, pls let me knw wat is going on~

It is a lie?

I feel tat it is a lie...
Lie, y wan lie me ?
U lie me u get wat ?
Syok ?
Happy ?
Or wat ?
Y u wan do like tis ?
I really beh song, i really wan settle it!!!
My final is coming...
I dont wan after final tis prob still havnt settle...
I hate u knw ?
I confuse u knw ?
After final i wan have my freedom, stress-less holidays...
I dont wan like tis anymore...
Yesterday, i leave some words in fb:
"My life is controlled... But it is not control by my dear, Weird~"
I didnt tell my dear yesterday wat happen...
No courage to tell dear, bcoz
Dear dont wan me worry tis prob anymore...
Dear jz wan me to settle it~
If i didnt settle it, dear will come n settle...
wat should i do ?
It tat i really wan leave to dear ?
Wat's wrong vf me ?

~Confuse~

I very very very very confuse ar!!!!
Y suddenly i so confuse...
I confuse....
The prob again!!!!
Hvnt done it~~~
Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer!!!!!
I don wan like tis le~~~
I wanna settle it!!!
But, is he too over dy!
I cant let him be...
He think who am i ?
Hw can like tis ?
Im no so cheap...
1st u said wan settle...
Nw i wan settle vf u...
But u said tat the things pass then let it passed!!!
But im not like tis... PLS!!
U r too OVER....
OVER...
Im playing vf u nw!
I wont like tis gv up~
I cant gv up~
I must do wan i wan~
Nw, no ppl r wrong n no ppl r correct~
So, i oso no COMMENT~
Pls la, dont so childish dy...
I hate!!!
Y wan so childish ?
Suddenly say wan settle, suddenly say jz forget bout it...
R u playing vf my time ?
R u playing vf my patient ?
U should knw hw is my patient...
U should knw the important of my time...
I really dont wan care so much le...
I tired care tis dy...
But, i wan to settle it!!!
AS FAST AS POSSIBLE!!!!
Nw, im waiting 4 dear comment n suggestion...
Jz follow wat dear say...
If dear say jz forget bout it, then i will forget bout it...
If dear say i cant gv up, then i wont gv up...
If dear say dear will help me to do it...
Then i will let dear do...
My FINAL EXAM jz leave 5days...
So, i cant worry tis all things le... NON of MY BUSINESS
I must do well in my final~~~
It is a final~~~
Final is final...
After final tat's all~~~
I will be very freedom...
Can accompany dear everyday!
Dear oso can accompany me everyday~
So, i pray to GOD...
Listen to my pray...
I jz wan to relaxxxxx....
GOD, i wan wan my life be happy everyday!
God bless me the most most most most most 4 me~~~
Love GOD n dear n family n study~
Muackxxxzzzz

[Super Tired]

Walao le~
2day super tired...
Bcoz, yesterday nite go out vf mum's frend...
We go supper~
Then i become more fat oledy~
But, dear say i can eat o~~~
So i eat lo~
Thx dear... Muack
Then they eat until 11pm++, until home oledy 12am le...
Then i still keep on chit chat vf mummy n grandma!!!
Finally, grandma scold... 555
She said tat dont wan sleep early...
Then morning cant wake up dy~
Haha~ Who's knw?
2day i wake up at 6.20am~~~
Great~ Well done~
I did it~~~
Haha, i think grandma oso no comment!!!
Early morning...
Take my breakfast~
Nice o!!! I like it!!!
2day will be super super super bz...
Bcoz
1st bz is~ i nid to skul until 4pm
2nd bz is~ ttn at 6pm-8pm ADD MATH
3rd bz is~ after ttn go MCD celebrate my cousin sister b'day~
Walao 2day, such a big big day 4 me~
I still hvnt buy the present!!!
Dono wan buy wat~~~
Super no money liao~
Still nid to buy tis n tat~~~
Aiyoyo~~ When my salary will reach ??
I cant wait dy la~~~
Even i very bz 2day, but i must accompany dear~
So, i must arrange my time~~~
Jz nw morning, i heard tat mum say mayb my cousin sister will go ipoh tis saturday~~~
O... I hope it is real~!~
I wanna FOLLOW~~~~
Hope i can follow~~~
Pray to GOD~
I wan go~ GOD~
Listen to my pray pls...

~~So scare at school~~

2day, i feel very scare wan cum skul~
Bcoz is yesterday problem...
Y?
Suddenly so many prob happen?
All the things come out in my mind~
Who is the admin of tis prob ?
Who ?
Who so childish?
So cheap ?
Play tis kind of things...
U think tat u can broke our sisters relationship vf jz few words?
I think tat u think too much dy!
DAY DREAM LA~
Such a stupid dream...
Haiz...
U must understand...
My life nw not in ur control...
After tis happened, i found tat my relationship vf sisters n dear become more sweet~
I like it!
But i dont wan got so many things happen again~
I hate, I tired to settle~
I cried yesterday afternoon~
Bcoz of some words...
I still misunderstand jiejie~
To my dear jiejie
SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY~
Sorry tat i misunderstand u dy!
Jie, thx 4 ur 4get n 4give...
U r my 4ever sis...
No ppl can broke our relationship between u n me~
I hope tat jiejie will believe...
After yesterday prob, i found tat u r really the ppl who oways take care of sisters feeling~
Jie, u so good~
Sorry tat i misunderstand u...
Make u sad...
Even make u difficult~
Sorry jie~
I hope tis ppl will really disappear in my life~
All the ppl hv their own life~
So, I love my life, I love my dear, I love my family, EVEN my sisters~~~
LOVE U ALL~~~ Muackxxzzzz

Betray~Warning^^

Is tat my life ?
I ask myself...
Suddenly many things happen...
Betray by ppl...
But i dono who betray me???
I wan to 5 out the ppl^^
I must 5 out...
I hate...
Nw my heart no more happy...
Jz stress...
I wanna "format" the stress...
N "install" my original happy^^
I dono wat is going on?
I oso dono y the ppl wan betray me?
Mayb they r jealous me...
But nvm, i will 5 out the ppl...
"Delete" the ppl in my life...
"Save" the ppl who love me, take care of me...
Tat's all...
I wan to let the ppl who warning me knw...
Im not last time de LE EN...
I change dy!!!
Dont play vf me...
If u play vf me, i oso will play vf u...
Dont think tat i will scare ur warning...
pui!!! such a stupid, idiot, no brain warning!!!!
Y i wan to scare ????
Scare 4 wat ?
U think u r who ?
U cant control me anymore!!!
Dont think i still will scare u, listen 2 u...
Im myself.. not the person can let u control dy~
Pls, u must be very very very very very UNDERSTAND!!!
Dont think u r the correct!!!
ALl the ppl r wrong... except U!!!!
I can tell u...
All the ppl will wrong n all the ppl will correct oso!!!
Human in tis world no 1 can be PERFECT!!!
Even GOD say so...
So, dont think u r the perfect....
U ask GOD la~~~
N u will knw wat is the answer GOD will gv u!!!
U say tat u hate me???
I can tell u...
I hate u more more more more more more more more more than u hate me!!!
U dont think so much le...
U no nid syok or happy urself at there le...
BCOZ, VIVIEN TAN is not scare u!!!
So...
I will take the gamble vf u if u wan...
I will play the game until i win~
I take the GAMBLE!!!!

Skul Wor~

2day got skul wor~
But sth weird is...
Oni our 4T got many ppl cum skul~~~
Other class... No so much as our class!!!
1st time le...
Saturday our class got so many ppl~~~ Surprise!!!
Haha~ we go skul sure got a reason de...
If not, members sure lz at house~~
2day we cum skul is bcoz...
PowerSiah wanna teach ADD MATH 2day!!!!
Walao, i hate it...
Such a stupid subject...
But i knw tat i cant hate it, if i hate it...
My result will super super super "good"!!!
Then mum n dad will start vf their mouth "gun"~~
Cant stop!!!!
So, i keep on telling myself... I MUST LOVE ADD MATH~
Yesterday afternoon...
went MCD vf jimui~~~
Haha we go study le...
I got study abit la...
But i think eating n talking is more than STUDY????
Hw can like tis ????
Waste time~~
But nvm la, i still got study la~ Jz no easy to focus!!!
But, i oledy try my best~~~
Yesterday nite, chit chat vf my grandma...
She cum my house~~~
Yeah, love it~
She cum my house i will be very happy~~
We chit chat tis n tat until 12.30++a.m.!!!
Grandma told me many things...
But the main point still is...
ASK ME TO STUDY WELL!!!
So i must try my best!!~~!!

是时候我回教会了~

突然间,有个声音叫我会教会了!
当我听到这个声音时,我问自己到底是神吗?
是不时他在叫我了...
我已经有10个月没走进教会了...
为什么会这样?
我自己也不明白...
当我决定要去教会时...
一定会有一件重要的事情让我不能去教会...
我真的很烦...
我不知道为什么会这样...
我真的很想很想回去教会了...
我10个月里到底在忙什么我自己也不懂...
朋友一次又一次的叫我去团契..
我却一次一次答应了又不能去...
这样的感觉好难受!!!
我该怎么做?

~FriDaY~

Yeah, 2day is friday...
At skul until 12.30pm oni...
After tat, wan go out vf sisters to MCD n study o~~
But... i dono i concentrate onot...
But, nvm, i must try my best...
To concentrate during study vf them!!!
Dont talk so much...
Keep on reading n revision.
Yesterday, i went pasar malam vf jiejie...
I bought 2 clothes... Like it!!!
Mummy dono i bought it...
Ltr she knw, then she will talk many many...
Haiz...
But nvm, jz forget bout it..
I oledy bought... HW ?
Sure i wear la!!!
Haha~
Dono y, 2day i feel quite happy...
Suddenly feel like tis o.
So, i must keep on happy 2day...
Mayb was yesterday i told dear tat the prob dy.
So 2day i feel very freedom...
Inside my heart no more tat kind of prob...
Inside my heart nw oni hv,
1st~Dear
2nd~Study(FINAL EXAM)
3rd~Family
Haha~
I wan faster finish exam...
Then i oni can go play...
But... my prepare still on the way...
Hw can i ask the xm come faster???
I dont care so much...
The important nw is STUDY...
DO WELL IN TIS FORM4 FINAL~~~
God Bless ME more n more n more~~

RealisE~

2day unhappy...
Bcoz, nw oni i realise, i wake up...
I found tat i think too much...
Ppl no care at all...
In fb, i leave a message to dear
"原来他们是那么在意的。。。我现在才发现了他们的真面目。。。也领悟到了~"
tis is real... i tell dear...
i knw dear sure wil ask me y???
So i will let dear knw...
Coz keep in my heart so difficult...
Uncomfortable...
I dont like...
I hate so many things keep in my heart...
I wan settle...
Y i nid to care so much le ?
Even be a frend they oso cant....
Remove from fb...
Haiz, dono wat their feeling?
So weird...
Haiz...
Y do so ?
Syok ar ?
I dont think so~ I jz wan happy...
N i wan study well...
FINAL really wan reach le...
I tell myself tat i cant worry anymore...
Jz relaxxxxx...
Love my dear...

Counting Days

Im counting days nw,
1st final exam just round the corner...
Yeah, my revision is in the process dy...
But still stress~ Dono hw ???
Tis friday, meet sisters study at MCD o...
I ask myself, can i study at there ?
Or jz keep on talking?
Actually i must study well le...
Cant waste my time anymore...
2nd, i feel very happy...
Coz when i finish xm...
I can meet dear le...
So miss dear...
Tis is dear said de o...
So, i must do the best in my final...
Tis is really really my final chance n challenge in Form4...
Form4 is going to end...
So fast, 1 year time so fast...
Too fast, i dono i oledy learn wat le...
But form4 time is going to finish le...
So, i must have plan b4 final xm n after xm...

Pressure

I dono wat is going on ?
I dono wat will happen in the next ?
I feel tat suddenly become a child...
Dono wan to do wat ?
Study ?
Revision ?
Sleep ?
Tuition ?
Homework ?
Work ?
Wat can i do?
I dono...
So stress, too tired...
So many things waiting 4 me to do...
~FINAL EXAM
~Cyber Brigade
~Work
~Tuition
~Go to 5 dear...
I must done all my things in skul de oni can 5 dear...
Tis is dear say de...
Y ?
Is tat dear worry me cant cope ?
I think i can try my best to do the best in tis world...
Even my result...
My relationship...
I must try my best...
I knw tat i can...
But jz suddenly feel CANNOT...
Pls... "CANNOT" pls get lost from my life...
Go aways...
I wan to study, I wan to do the best...
I still wan to take a nice REST...
Dont wan think so much le...
Jz do wat the things tat belongs 2 me to do...
Extra things, Other things...
All non of my business...
I jz wan to hv a super super super super super freedom during holidays...
Even i work n study on holidays...
But i promise myself...
Must let myself to be freedom...
Tired dy jz rest...
Tat's all!!!
"CANNOT THINK SO MUCH~" dear say...
"PROMISE DEAR~" i say...
So, start nw, i must do the best...
Take out the best of mine...
Win them...
Get TOP 5...
Cant lose ppl~~

~EXAM~

Exam just round the corner???
Many ppl told me tis...
I oledy knw, still got ppl ask me...
"Hw bout ur revision?" they ask...
"I dono wat is going on vf my revision!!!" i say...
then they will say i lie them,
they say tat i sure got revision everyday...
but i oso dono i got revision onot ???
So tired when i wan revision,
but i must do it...
If not, i will say bye bye to my result...
It will gone...
Then mummy n daddy will scold...
I dont wan, i must study...

FeelingS^^

Dear, i jz wan u understand my feeling^^
tat's all, i wont ask u do tat n tis 4 me...
Coz u r different in my life,
i dont wan u gv me tis n tat,
i jz wan u can accompany everyday~
come sitiawan 5 me...
sth happen i wan let u knw,
i jz dunt wan u feel scare whole day...
u no nid worry me,
i will take care myself...
the important is u must knw to take care urself..
dont let me worry u...
im so worry u knw...
dear, pls let me knw wat r u doin in every minutes...